woah.

Manchester Orchestra - "Simple Math" from DANIELS on Vimeo.

moving :/

oyvey. over the past few weeks my landlord has been quite, umm, interesting to say the least. roomie and I finally decided to take action and write a letter to him saying that he needed to fix our kitchen windows that have been leaking badly since december and also to get a mold inspector to come out. don't ask why we didn't do this sooner - I don't really know.

turns out he's willing to replace the window but that's about it. so he's been up at our place a ton, trying to fix stuff himself for awhile and even took his own 'mold sample' which 'came back negative'... but finally we have come to mutually agree that it's best for all involved if we move out. I think he is over us because we're not willing to settle and we are over him because he just won't do what we're asking.

in other words my break over the next 2 weeks just got quite a bit more interesting/stressful, as I now have to figure out a way to hopefully put my stuff in storage for the month of may and find some friends who will let me crash with them.....

I hate moving, but perhaps it is time for something new. in fact, it is. it's time for me to move to a place with a bathtub - this I know for sure. on to better things I say. and in a very odd way, becoming a nomad for a month actually sounds appealing to me. I think I kind of feel that way a bit right now...

a poem

shared with me by my practicum facilitator on our last meeting...

once only by denise levertov.

All which, because it was
flame and song and granted us
joy, we thought we'd do, be, revisit,
turns out to have been what it was
that once, only; every invitation
did not begin
a series, a build-up: the marvelous
did happen in our lives, our stories
are not drab with its absence: but don't
expect to return for more. Whatever more
there will be will be
unique as those were unique. Try
to acknowledge the next
song in its body -- halo of flames as utterly
present, as now or never.

goodwill = baller.

yesterday I took a friend to the airport who was headed to europe for a week, and I resisted the urge to be her 2nd bag and tag along. :-) phew, that was close.

on my way back I decided to stop at the goodwill in ballard because I've heard good things about it. aaaaaaaand it was fantastic.

for $15 I walked out with a VHS copy of 'hook', an ichiro mariners jersey, a basketball jersey finally (that I'm technically supposed to wear every time my tuesday night bball league plays - oops), a sweet flannel shirt from american eagle, and a hilarious board game called 'therapy' that I just couldn't resist.

my friend Alisa joined me and she found some sweet stuff too, among them a super cute dress and a jigsaw puzzle. :-) after that we went back to my house, turned the fireplace on, Jenny came over, we watched hook, semi-played therapy, and ordered pizza.

I approve of this day.

so I'm on break, and...

I'm now on break until May - woah nelly. kind of a big deal. I did it, I finished trimester numero dos, I am free... I survived first year practicum, marriage and family class, and history and therapeutic perspectives. woosh!

there've been many endings for me over the past month or so.. ending with my practicum group, ending with my triad composed of 2 other lovely individuals, ending with my facilitator, etc. and overall, I feel that I actually mostly 'showed up' for these endings, offering myself and my heart in the midst of them instead of running away or freaking out about them. kind of a big deal actually.

but now, I find myself already anxious about this 2.5 week break that I have. what will I do? what should I do? how do I balance fun with things I really need to do with rest with work... eeeek. slow down, Cori, and breathe. rrrrrrreeeeeeeesssssssstttttttttt, even in the midst of chaos. oh how I wish I could learn that quickly and easily.

one thing, however, that I decided yesterday would be 1) restful for me and 2) good for me is to have at least one tangible thing that I do each day to pay attention to and care for myself.

yesterday, I took a super delightful nap after being done with all of my finals. :-)

tonight, I went out to celebrate my classmate and friend Leanna's 30th birthday, and suggested when we were done at the bar that we were at that we go basically next door to matador to get their amazing $5 happy hour nachos. oh, and we did. deeeeeeeeeeeeelish.

tomorrow, I.......

finals week = blerg.

in twenty-four hours i will be finished with my second term of graduate school --- eeeeeeee!

dang.