angerrrrr

I don't know what my deal was/is (?), but yesterday at least, I was super angry about everything. first I went to office hour with this girl, thinking I'd just talk to her about one little question I had, but then the anger and the sadness came out. yep, that's where it started. basically I was upset about the church, and how it doesn't seem like what Jesus talked about is preached or valued. anyway, perhaps that blog is for another day.

then I had old testament class for six hours. ayayay. I tried to pay attention, for awhile at least. I even closed my computer a few times to try to listen better. but I was pissed. not sure exactly at what, the class perhaps, or the fact that I couldn't really listen, or that life feels out of my control right now, but I couldn't wait til I left to go to my basketball game.

and I was stiiiiiiiiiiill mad. so this was the perfect outlet for me - running around, getting energy out, playing basketball. yes! so I played... like I was mad. because I was. I thought to myself that I really wanted to foul out. it felt really good to just hack people, not let them shoot easily. I even took a charge at one point which I felt pretty good about. I think I ended with 4 fouls - two short of what I wanted.

we lost the game and we led for most of it. ugh. more anger.

later that night I just was thinking about it, and why/what I'm mad at, and really the only thing that came to me is that I think God is okay with my anger. sounds trite, but seriously though. I don't think I have to try to fix it right now.

click click

I am in class right now.

I really hope that they win and that they lose (badly).

I mailed in a check for $140 to do this today. :/

A man who comes into my coffee shop is a psychiatrist and gave me this book to read. I started it last night and already love it.

I am doing this soon, and it scares the crap out of me to think about. I'll probably pee my pants.

aaaaaaaaah! I want one of these!!

recently discovered: this place is fun. also, I'd like to go to this.

why, oh why, does this have to be on while I'm in group therapy class?!? boo. love that show.

this summer one of my goals is to try doing this.

I recently jumped on their bandwagon, and I definitely don't regret it.

THIS IS SO CUTE!! 

...heyo.

when I was in undergrad I applied for this. but really, I've always, always wanted to go on this.

apparently these are amazing, and I must go. soon.

ahahahaha. I remember when this happened. so. funny.

it is a dream of mine to return here, where I lived when I was 8. 

speaking of food, a friend just handed me summa these so I'm gonna go eat them now. byeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ode to old testament class

a haiku about the seven hour OT class I am currently in:

A microphoned man

Typing fingers web browsing

Distractions galore